Life is always full of ups and downs, when its the best part of your life, you feel you're in heaven, with all your close friends, family members and all the great stuff one can wish for. When you're experiencing a very bad part, its as though you should just shut yourself from the outside world and do some really serious thinking. I'm feeling
very very down. No worries, i'm not to the state of shutting myself from the outside world
yet. Nothing seems to be working well for me.
If you're going to ask me what is motivating me to carry on with my life, i would say its nothing. I don't even know why am i still being so cheerful when i'm really quite upset inside. LOOK, i failed maths, chinese and langarts. How bad can things get. Seeing friends around you passing and all of them having a spastic smile plastered on their face while all i could do is to pretend as if i don't mind.
I expected myself to fail maths, i wasn't sad at all, just a little guilty :X But when i got back my chinese paper, i was utterly upset, demoralised. Its amazing how i fail chinese though i'm quite okay with it a few years ago. Shrugs, friends ask me what is happening to me now, failing everything? So not like sylvia.
If you think your results aren't good enough, think again. Perhaps to you, it isn't but i will be really thankful if you would try not to show it to me. How you guys can complain about the marks in front of me when i'm already on the verge of breaking down. - i'm not that vulnerable though -
Well, i guess its normal for humans to expect more than what they get. If you failed by 1 mark, you want to pass it. When you pass it, you want to get higher scores. Don't you think so ? I don't blame anyone, but just
MYSELF.
Shrugs, and here and there i get caught for my hair, have gotta pin the side up. Do you think i will do so ? I'm still thinking of trimming it to make it shorter so that i don't need to pin it up. I'm rebellious, i know. Its just my style and i hope things would stay this way (definately not my results). I know what is the limit.
I KNOW. thanks for your reminder anyway.
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